1. I have this thing. Since I was in college, I’ve called it “The Feeling” It is a discomfort. An unsettled anxiety that comes from looking at certain things. Many […]
You Never Know Which One Will Be Your Last
It’s been said that I’ve quit smoking. It’s been said by me. I put it in print back in January, in this very venue, in fact. I meant it then. […]
I Became a Connoisseur
1. I know it like I know the shape of my face in the mirror. I can tell when something changes in it. When there is a new wrinkle. An […]
…And It Need Not Be Returned.
It is time to say goodbye. She died on the side of the freeway 100 feet from the entrance to the Caldecott tunnel. On December 30, 2011. She made it […]
On the Soft Underbellies of Mollusks…
1. I think I know the moment when I learned what love is. I was 22 years old. I was on my third or fourth date with the woman who […]
The Day When Nothing Was Good Enough…
Once I was on a dating website. It was one of those ones that asks you a million questions and uses a complex algorithm to find matches. Better living through […]
Grief Like a Ghost That I Love
I went to sleep last night at 10:00pm. The last thing I thought of before I closed my eyes was my girlfriend. My ex-girlfriend. And how she was gone. When […]
My Insecurities Are Animals
My insecurities are animals. Butterflies to be exact. They take up physical space in my body. I can be going along comfortable in my day, feeling clear, and minding my […]