splintered road to Gaza

preamble: on December 27, 2009, i arrived in Cairo, Egypt along with nearly 1400 people from 43 countries around the world. we were there under the general guise of participating in the Gaza Freedom March, a nonviolent march in solidarity with the people of Gaza to commemorate and honor the loss of 1400 lives as a result of a 23 day bombing offensive in the Gaza strip by the Israeali military. in hindsight, believing Egypt would allow such a high-profile international show of support for the plight of Gaza to be launched from its borders seems absurdly naive. but go we did, with our collective hopes for freedom coalescing us as one.

on december 29th, it became clear the Egyptian government indeed had no intention of allowing the Peace Coup to go down. frantic final hour calls and appeals led to a deal brokered by Suzanne Mubarak, wife of the President, to allow 100 people in under the banner of the Red Crescent for the explicitly stated purpose of transporting humanitarian aid.

this is a personal account of what followed…

northern Sinai, Egypt. 30 december 2009. 7:50pm

here we are on the road to Gaza.

i am one of what ended up being 65. i was included in the original 100. i got the news that I was selected last night at 9pm. “pack your bags.” my friend and coordinator of the media team said. “you’re on the list. you’re going.”

when the organizers held a meeting to tell everyone, obviously it did not go down easily for many people for many different reasons. over 1300 people impossibly pared down to 100. and with only two hours to decide and make the selections, it could never be satisfactory. finally and still, we the 100 were to meet two buses at 7am.

we packed. wrote last email. some of us slept and woke again. but when we left our rooms at 6:15am, we were met with the news that the organizing team decided they’d made the wrong call in accepting the 100-person proposal without being able to consult everyone, etc. they were very sorry for the pain and challenge it had caused. so we would go to the bus, this perspective of the organizers would be shared and whoever still wanted to go would go.

long story short, the Left thing happened. the people that felt we should all go or none of us should go began tactic after tactic to convince everyone that they should not go. that they should get off the bus. that Egypt’s foreign minister issued a statement saying the 100 chosen were selected because they were not dangerous but the remaining were. that the people of Gaza would not want us to come. that the entire movement–all of the years of work–would be destroyed if we did.

it was not a conversation. it was not thoughtful. it was not nonviolent.

over the next 3 hours, much shuffling occurred. people getting off the bus. people getting on. people screaming that everyone should get on, screaming that everyone should get off. people just screaming. a few people took turns holding up a hastily scrawled sign that said “Get out the buses. Do you think 100 people represent 1400 Palestinians dead!”

very few of the people that had made it through the passport check already were firm all the way through. neither firmly on nor firmly off. there were a handful, though, that for whatever their reasons–and they were varied–knew without a doubt that they intended to go.

Zainab Salbi, the Iraqi author and leader for women offered, in a dignified and respectful way, “if you are here for humanitarian reasons, you should stay on. if you are here for political reasons, you should get off. they are both right.”

from the time I knew there was unsureness about whether fewer than all should go, I knew that if the bus went, I would go. if not, I would not.

looking into the only heart that knows, I realize, with all the complexity, that I am not here for reasons humanitarian or political in the conventional sense. I am here by the call of Spirit. I am here as a priest. I am here in my role as a fellow human being Bearing Witness to what too much of the world has ignored for far too long.

so given the choice, if it were at all possible, I would bear this witness with my own eyes, being and heart.

having been a witness, perhaps my Jewish colleagues will no longer send me email telling of how well Palestinians are faring. perhaps when the debates are riddled with characatures and hyperbole about either Palestinians or Israelis, I will have the trust of my own, undoubtedly limited experience. perhaps i can be a credible voice that contributes to the voices raised for truth, even if that truth is just my own. and…perhaps the people will not want us there as was suggested by the off-Busers. be that so, I will Bear Witness to that, too.

what I bore witness to today was the hypocrisy that lives in our hearts when we speak of nonviolence, when we speak of choice, when we speak of basic respect. but I rest assured that my crossing the border to say “you are not forgotten” will not destroy a movement towards what we all–humanitarian, political and spiritual–wish for, to see the Gazan people, and through them all people, Thrive.

so I am ON the bus, and on a now-Splintered Road to Gaza. but my heart and my spirit are whole.

salaam.

ps, we just became 75. ten of some 30-odd folks that had come to Al-Arish hoping to get across the border but ending up on house arrest in a hotel were just transferred to our 2nd bus.

pps, i hear we’re officially 86.

[written and posted with an iPhone]


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